Back To The Start

Hi guys! Sorry I forgot about all of you for a little bit, life has been…well, quite filling lately! I realized the other day that I missed blogging/journaling. Just being able to write down my thoughts and emotions and be able to look back on my past experiences and life lessons and smile a little bit. I’ve come a long way from where this blog first began. I’ve matured, physically and mentally and emotionally too. I’ve gotten myself into situations, both good and bad, that have lead me to be the person I am today. So I thought it would be fun to share them with you all :)

So this summer I’m actually in Boston, Massachusetts (still can’t spell Massachusetts without the help of autocorrect, haha) working for one of my dream companies, Vic Firth! For those who don’t know, Vic Firth is a drum stick and percussion mallet company. I am in the offices in Hyde Park where we deal with all of the shipments, the social media, the accounting, the customer services, and the artist relations that go into this 52 year old company. It’s a lot of fun, not as hands on as I had hoped, but nonetheless a fantastic opportunity that I have been blessed with.

Living in Boston has been a great experience as well. I’m in a house with 5 other people, all of us kind of doing our own thing. None of us are super close to each other, so it has been a very independent summer to say the least. I have explored the city of Boston and visited amazing restaurants and historic landmarks by myself a lot, which wasn’t easy at first but has become much easier as I’ve “practiced.” I feel like this is the biggest skill I have gained this summer, being independent and able to live and thrive on my own. It makes me feel ready to take on the real world after college in many ways. While I don’t necessarily enjoy the solitude and lack of partners to go adventure with, I have been looking for the silver lining. I can do things at my own pace which is nice. So I don’t feel bad if I want to change my plans around at a whim and stay in for the night or buy a reasonably expensive meal for myself. I am very much looking forward to going home though and being with my friends and family for a few weeks before school starts.

Crazy to think I’m a senior in college now. And to be honest, I still have no idea what I want to do after I graduate in May. Honestly, I’m not too scared though. Because I have options. What I mean is I have a handful of companies that I have been in contact with over the past few years or months that I feel like I would enjoy working for and that there are opportunities that I want to pursue with them. Sometimes (actually, a lot of the time) I feel like I’m not meant for “real” jobs. I don’t want a 9-5 Monday to Friday kind of job. I don’t want consistency, at least not at first. I want to be on my feet, outside, traveling, interacting, enjoying myself. I want to make people happy and I want to make a difference in the world, those are the main two things I want to aim for in my career moving forward.

Just a few hours before this, I took a look at my bucket list from a while ago. I hadn’t edited that thing in years! There were still things on it like “Hike Mt. Everest,” and “Fly to the Moon,” things I realistically can say I will never accomplish in my lifetime.┬áSo I went through the whole thing and kind of revised it. I got rid of the ridiculous goals, the ones I really don’t expect to ever happen. I downgraded others, like changing “Compete in a Triathlon,” to “Run a half marathon.” I checked off the ones I had done so far, which were a lot surprisingly! And I added a few new goals, ones that I have discovered about myself over the past few months of introspection. I feel like I have been drifting away from the person I really am recently, and I have been fighting to understand who I really am; as a person and a friend and a lover and a human being. But that story I will save for another post ;)

So I will leave you all with this update on my life. I hope everyone else following along is doing well and enjoying life and being the beautiful creatures that we are meant to be. I’ll leave you all with a little quote: “Be the change that you want to see in the world.”

Happy Weekend :)

The Power of Touch

So yesterday I went to the eye doctors just for a regular eye exam and to get some new contacts, nothing too big. I was quickly escorted back to the eye exam room and told to get comfortable in the chair with all the equipment around it. As the doctor performed her tests – asking me “1 or 2,” “2 or 3,” “4 or 3,” over and over – a thought crossed my mind.

I was really enjoying the exam, almost feeling happier because of it, and I couldn’t quite tell why. Until I realized it was the touch of the metal machine on my face, on my chin, the head rest on the back of my neck, my lower back pressed against the chair. Even though the doctor wasn’t touching me, the sheer act of being touched by those machines was improving my mood and making me feel more loose, more comfortable.

At first I was a little confused by my feelings. Was I getting turned by eye exam equipment? No, but I was experiencing some sort of chemicals being released into my body, mixing together, and resulting in a very warm wave radiating through my chest and my shoulders. Just by being touched, held and supported by the chair and machine, I was feeling the same emotional response as I would from receiving a hug or being held by someone.

Physical touch is so utterly vital to our moods and emotions that it blows my mind. Our brain somehow senses the comfort and happiness we are feeling when hugging a friend or spooning on the couch or just holding hands, and releases these natural substances throughout our body. Without them being released, something is just…missing. You don’t feel complete, you don’t feel 100% in the moment. All from touch, the power touch has on us.

I’d love to hear if anyone else has noticed this as well and what their thoughts are :) Also open to a good conversation! Have a great Saturday though guys!

Let Love In

This is one of my new years resolutions. I’m not really all that big on new years resolutions, because I feel that if you put your mind to it you can begin a resolution whenever you want. But while I was sitting at my aunt’s house with the rest of my extended family, I couldn’t help but think about the possibility of having a girl next to me. Someone to share a new year’s kiss with, someone to talk to about all the funny stories our family has been a part of, someone to hold that night, to eat breakfast with the next morning, and to sit next to on the car ride home. I wouldn’t mind the cramped back seat, with our shoulders rubbing because of how squished we were in our tiny Subaru. I would love every second of it.

I went to a party last night. Just over at a friend’s place, nothing special. Literally, NOTHING special. I realized once I got there just how often our group of friends did the same thing every weekend. I felt like I was getting into a rut. I left an hour later. And as the cold wind blew on my face as I walked home, I couldn’t help of thinking back to the new years party, wishing I had someone to walk besides, someones hand to hold as we crossed the street. Someone to whisper to as we got in bed and tried not to wake my already sleeping roommate. Just someone.

I’ve been in a handful of relationships during my life, two really major ones, one which lasted the last year and a half of high school, and the other which stretched through the first two years of college. I learned a lot from these experiences, a lot more than I would have imagined. I always feel like we take away something very important from the relationships we are in, even if they end terribly or only last a few weeks. I didn’t treat these two girls nearly as well as I should/could have, and I realize that after the fact. I was younger, less mature, and just not 100% in the relationship.

But now I’m ready. I’m ready for miss right to show her face. I want her to be beautiful and smart and talkative. I want her to get shy when she gets nervous, I want her to laugh when we make mistakes together. And I want that cute booty, I want it to tease me constantly. I know she’s out there, it’s only a matter of time. But don’t you think she could be a little considerate and show her face soon. I’m starting to worry she’s not out there…

I’M BAAACK!

Boy, it sure has been a while since I’ve been on here. I LITERALLY (but not actually) had to blow the dusk off this blog.

A lot has happened in life recently, so I hope to share some stories and experiences with all you wonderful people soon! No time now, gotta run to class, but soon!

How to live a Nearly Drama Free Life (no really, I’m not kidding!)

Love can be pretty stressful, we all know that. I can’t imagine anyone has had a perfect love life; where whoever they crush on likes them as well, where their relationships fall together effortlessly and the breakups are mutual. Even just a perfect single relationship, it just doesn’t happen to very many people.

So when one of my best friends came to me for help about getting into a relationship with an acquaintance of hers, I knew we had another fun situation on our hands. This problem wasn’t going to be as easy to solve as I had anticipated, for many reasons that I shall leave out of this post, but I attempted to nonetheless. In the end, she went away away more frustrated than before and I went away with a little bit of extra knowledge that I hadn’t anticipated learning.

Drama happens. Sometimes there is no way to stop it from happening because people naturally gossip and enjoy talking about other people. So there is little chance that you can complete eradicate it from your life. But after this conversation, I learned one very important lesson:

The less you care about drama, the less it effects your life.

Say something crazy happens; your sleep with someone and ends up peeing on their floor while they’re still drunk. On the one hand, you could take it personally when people ask you about it, plead with them to stop talking about it, and try to do anything in your power to stop the fire from spreading. OR, on the other hand, you could just laugh at yourself and then move on with your life.

The first option will do nothing but spread the story around and cause you stress and more drama. Attempting to stop the story from spreading will most like backfire because of the number of people that will be asking what you are arguing over.

But the second and more superior option (though difficult to stick to for some), will let the story sizzle away with time, leaving you drama free!

This might be a new idea for some, so give it a try next time something happens that could potentially cause drama. Remember to sit back, relax, enjoy the ride, and know everything is going to be okay in the end!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend! :) Watch some football or relax, you deserve it!

Back To School Thought

As another semester of college began this week, I couldn’t help but think about my past. Just how on earth did I get to where I am right now? How was I so lucky to make friends, to succeed in school, to learn firsthand in the field of study I hope to one day pursue? HOW?

It truly is amazing sometimes how life just works itself out for the better. I see some of my old friends from high school every once in a while. I always make an effort to pick right back up where we left off, like the past two years never happened. But it’s difficult…so much has changed to those I once knew so well. Some have gone down better paths than others, and for them I hope for some guidance as they continue their journey through life. But others are doing really well off – enjoying their college experience, making friends, and slowly but surely becoming more and more successful.

I have a dear friend who has always been “bothered” by the fact that while we are living our own lives, other people who are not with us are living their lives as well. Even though they are not a next to us or even in the same state as us, they are going through the same daily routines as we are. I guess I can agree with her, it is a tad odd to think about…

For everyone just starting a new chapter of their life, savor every moment and every day. Because there will always be that desire to look back on life, to remember the past. My other friend has a great quote on his arm though: “Those who look back are lost.” Savor the past, but don’t live in it. Life keeps moving forward and you must too.

And for those continuing to grow and learn, reach for the stars. We are only given one life, and it’s all of our jobs to live it in the best way that we can.

Hope everyone has a great Friday tomorrow :) Thanks for reading!

The Twenty Seconds of Insane Courage

Most things in life take a little bit of courage – asking your boss for a raise, talking to the cute girl you see at Starbucks every morning, asking your best friend for help on an important decision. Without a little bit of courage, a little extra push from your brain saying “You can do this, just be confident and go for it,” not many of these things would happen. Courage is tough to harvest, but once you have enough, it can make a world of a difference in your confidence level and eventually your success rate.

Recently, I saw the movie We Bought A Zoo. It’s a beautiful movie about a man and his two children going through a rough time and a big change after their mother passes away. If you’ve seen this movie before, kudos to you! If not, check it out. The dialogue is a little spotty at times but the overall message and especially the music (props to Jonsi, the music composer) are both fantastic.

One of the overall messages that this movie attempts to get across to its viewers is that of courage. Specifically, if you’re in a tough spot and want to make a big change, sometimes all you need is 20 seconds of insane, ridiculous courage when talking to someone or doing something. Those 20 seconds are the difference between success and failure sometimes.

So next time you’re in a pickle or you meet a cute person that you can’t stop thinking about, twenty seconds of courage may be all you need to start a conversation, fix a problem, or turn your life around.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful week! :)